escape

i dont think i still like my EX

i dont think i still have the feelings i once did, i dont think we get along like we used to i dont think any of the chemistry is there anymore.

And for some reason im so obessed with like the IDEA of us, like wanting the feelings we shared back wanting what we had back and sometimes not even the we

not even the him

just wanting the feelings back.

I need to be needed, and i need someone to tell me that i have made such an impact on their life, or that ive changed them, or that they have never felt this way before. I loved making him into a better person, i need to be needed.

My life is shambling as we speak and falling apart at the seams, the Ex is most likely getting back together with his Ex and like i dont even know how i feel. Thats the worst part of this whole thing.. i just dont know what i want. I dont want him. I dont want to be an 'Us'. i just want him to not exist.

i want to move away and leave, i am such a downer lately its unreal.

but new song to check out- the great escape by patrick watson

Bad Day

Lookin for a way, home

Lookin for the great escape

Gets in her car and drives away

Far from all the things that we are

Puts on a smile and breathes it in and breathes it out

He says

Bye Bye, Bye to all the noise

Oh she says, Bye bye, bye to all the noise