let temptation take you

so in other news this guy mike

who ive been on again off again making out groping you know all that romantic jazz

at one point he told me he wanted to start a relationship up, and what did i do.. umm i went to ben. and now me and ben arent together so I always wondered if it was one of those wrong choice senarios. Anyways i told him a million times i liked him, and he in return told me a million times "im not ready for a gf"

so when he started dating christine i was midly jealous, they dated for like a week, she was in my english class and chatted non stop about how she thought things were going FAR and how he always talked about the Future. and BOOM. they break up

so they stay broked up for about a couple weeks.. (haha this is getting confusing right?) and then the other night he re-asked her out. and then i spiral back down into my jealousy and regret balh blah blah and then... a DAY later they break up AGAIN.

i dunno what the hell is wrong with this kid

but theres no way im ever getting a relationship with that fool.

if i had to choose you or the sun, id be one nocturnal son of a gun

alright im out of this emo kick ive been on for like a week now.
im guessing its one of those hormonals unbalances everyone is always talking about. anyways i hung out with this guy steve yesturday before work and it was very strange.
we went to leave and instead of letting me into the car he just drove away. so i stood in the middle of his street for like 2 minutes wondering if he would ever come back.
he did, but man i was mid anxiety attack at this point
because im my retard mind im thinking "did i so something he might want to revenge me for".."is he gonna come back?".. "how the hell am i gonna get to work and WTF am i gonna say"...
anyways he came back obviously, and i told him i freaked to he held my hand and told me hed never do that to me and said to calm down
i said "i cant calm down" and what does he do Stop his car in the middle of effing traffic and says he wont drive until i calm down.
so im sitting there screaming im calm im calm im calm
he dosent believe me
it was a very weirdly attractive situation for me and like i realised personality wise hes my type.
i love a guy that can push me (not physically)

And then i went to work, got back from work and hung out with a bunch of my girl friends who are the funnest to be with and who remind me why i dont need a boyfriend right now.